He keeps telling me "it was an amazing experience, you should not be sad. "
"I'm not sad about having that experience " I keep telling him. "I'm delighted actually to have gone through such a thing."
But still, I'm sad.
I'm sad because the search for the right person apparently didn't end. I thought for a moment that I could take a break now from that toilsome search, and concentrate on other stuff; enjoying love for example.
To find that amazing combination of things that I like in a person was surprising & astonishing, to find out we're not made for each other was even more astonishing.
believe me I know we're not made for each other. I've felt it too.
Some of you will give me the "he will come alone, you shouldn't search for him" answer. Please just don't. you have probably found your one, and you forgot how is it like to wonder if you'll ever find him. Others just gave up..
breath in, breath out.
I'm strong enough.
I've already been here.
I've already survived once.
I will survive again.
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